I’m broken. Truth is that I’ve been broken for a very long time now.

Many of my friends and my readers have asked me why I haven’t posted any new blogs and I have a list of excuses that I constantly give people as to why:

“I have two jobs now”

“I’m the Queen of Procastinationville”

“Adulthood sucks and has taken over my life”

While most of these aren’t really excuses because Lord knows that I really am the reigning monarch of Procrastinationville, the honest truth is that most of the posts I have drafted are very personal and raw. Now, I know that the blog is called “Ori With A Story”, so you’re probably saying to yourself “duh! it HAS to be personal. It’s your damn story” but the truth is that as a writer, as honest as I’d like to be with my audience, I also don’t want to have to sell my soul to my readers. Some things you just want to keep to yourself.

In the last few months I have been battling my own set of demons and the fight is far from over. I am a work in progress (probably will be until the day I die) and as much as I’d like to hide them by always having a smile on my face and a good attitude to boot, there are days where I fall into a self-induced depression and I let the demons win. I get tired of fighting them, it’s draining.

While I won’t go into detail about what my demons are in this post, I have made the conscious decision to start documenting them from now on right here, in front of the world. I figure that if I’m going through many of these issues, then many of you out there are going through similar experiences and at the very least if I can’t help myself, then maybe I can help someone else through their struggle.

I repeat: I’m NOT perfect. It’s actually pretty frightening how imperfect I am, but I’m working on making life a little better for myself every day. I’m scared, I’m insecure sometimes, I’m stubborn, I’m vindictive and I feel like the older I get, the more jaded I become. But at least I’m honest with myself about it and that’s the first step.

Not to worry, all of my posts will not be this dark and twisty, but just know that if you’re going through something difficult in your life right now, you’re not alone in your struggle. Just remember to be kind to others, as we’re all fighting a pretty tough battle.

-Ori